two months and counting

when I began writing this blog, the number of days that had past since my departure from chicago for london were a focal point of each entry measuring my experience, perhaps even my growth. today, as I wrote the date '15 june 2006' on a form at the doctor's office, I realized that I have reached a date that I didn't think would come so quickly. but here it is...june 15. it's the date that I had set in my head as something of a deadline to begin having a conversation with m about what happens in two months when I pack away my life and leave chicago, yet again. this time, the stakes feel a bit higher as my commitment is of considerable more weight and this relationship has reached some emotional levels that I had not expected.

growing is painful sometimes.