disappointment

just received my dissertation marks from goldsmiths and, as the subject indicates, I'm disappointed. I knew that my bit on benjamin was not as fully developed as it can be, but I guess I was relying a bit on some sort of good karma to bump my mark up a bit. the mark isn't all that poor, really, but I am gutted. the pressure - self-invoked, of course - to do really well on my gre and prepare the rest of my application well is on. but what am I off to do right now? bake zucchini bread. at the very least, I know that I can do that well. (note: I will not allow the self-doubt that rings through with bells and whistles in the last statement to overtake me. a bit of initial sulking is necessary though.)

here's hoping that my program marks are more impressive than the dissertation...boo.