the approach of autumn

today is my friend kate's 27th birthday, the culmination of roctober. (kate is of the belief that one should celebrate their birthday for the entirety of their birthday month. maybe it's a bit, but I do have to say that extending my birthday somewhat this summer was quite enjoyable.) while I have yet to actually speak to her yet, I am thinking of a comment that she made on friday during a quick phone conversation. the comment was something about being upset with her approaching day as she doesn't feel that she is where she wanted to be at this point in her life.

now, this is not to analyze kate's thoughts on her 27th year (I personally think ms. nolan is at a wonderful point in life), but merely to draw from it in thinking about myself. really, kate's birthday prompts me to think about where I was last year and where I thought I would be today. likely my expectations for where I thought I would be now, october 17, 2005, were foundless. perhaps having such expectations only helped to bring about their self-destruction. and while this time last year was difficult for me in some ways, I must remember that, in many ways, I continue to live the life of then. of knowing that there are great things beyond today and that it is in fact a wonderful thing to not know what those are. so, perhaps my bemoaning reflection is irrelevant. though I'm not where I thought I would be, it's not such a bad space. and who knows, maybe I'll come 'round to the space that I had once expected. I guess that's the beauty of it all.