some things just don't change.

until a hour and a half ago, I was having a fairly productive day. I woke up at six, tidied my room before going on a 10 mile run, stretched, did some situps, showered, made lunch, and went to gsmiths's library, where I spent two and a half hours taking notes on a film for my next paper (yeah, you all think I'm a film student now). after finishing the film, I came to this shiny imac and did a bit of research on the aforementioned documentary. and then, then, what did I do? I read several nyt articles. okay, not bad. necessary to know what's going on in the world. then I checked my email. also, necessary. communication is necessary. but for the last forty-five minutes, I have done NOTHING but read 'best of' on craigslist. and honestly, this has to stop. what part of my brain gets turned off when I read this damning, yet wonderful, pit that sucks my soul away? apparently, the part that is in complete anxiety mode with the little amount of time to do a lot of decent to excellent writing.

there were times pre-london that I would get wrapped up in 'best of.' it's easy to do. a little break from real responsibilities, if you will. but damn it, attempting to read all of the posts in one sitting is not mine or anyone's responsibility. I'm now forcing myself to go back to my flat and engage in a carefully orchestrated method of avoiding the worst flatmate ever (maybe not as bad as the girl who wrote ihatemyflatmate.blogspot.com, but really, she's awful), just for the simple fact that, without internet access, I am guaranteed to get much more done without the possibility of reading the only 'best of' post from austin. because damn it, I will not self-sabatoge myself! at least, not until after these papers are written...fingers crossed.