i am a masochist.

god willing, that title won't get me listed on some erotica website of sorts. my masochism, especially that of the moment, is my 'ingenius' idea to apply lacanian psychanalysis to this bloody paper on identity erasure. jigga what? yeah...I've set ambitious goals (like really understanding lacan in a matter of weeks) and then sabotage myself. example: I drank a latte at 8:45pm last night, with the best intentions of working for several more hours, only to put myself to bed two hours later with the excuse of, 'I'm tired. I can't work well right now.' what??? caffeine flowing through my veins and I wuss out and go to bed. argh.

let's hope for a better paper day today, shall we?

and yes, you can roll your eyes now people. I do it to myself just thinking about all of this.

hope you're all well. loves.