le musique

something that I am just realizing is how my great appreciation for music effects the way that I think. okay, so maybe I’m not saying this as clearly as I could. to get to the short of it, more and more I find myself thinking in song lyrics. yes, song lyrics have, in some way, become the way that I calibrate my thoughts. it’s a bit odd, but sometimes I hear a line and it resonates and becomes a way for me to process some personal emotion. for example, I listened to the bright eye’s song ‘take it easy (love nothing)’ over a dozen times today. (I know, it’s sickening, but I needed some sort of constant rhythm in my head while I was working on my last chapter.) in addition to the pace and flow of the song that fueled my impromptu addiction, these lyrics struck me.

if you stay too long inside my memory
I will trap you in a song tied to a melody
and I'll keep you there so you can’t bother me

something about these words/the sentiment of these words feels comfortable in my thoughts of pke, thoughts that I have had more often in this last week. (not that they make them disappear, by any means.) while I continue to mull over these bits of remembrances and such, it is nice to have mr. oberst speaking for me/thinking for me/helping me process my feelings in some small way at least for now. sooner than later, I will have to do this on my own.

now, with that being said, I have a little dissertation to which I must attend. I mean, for fuck sakes, I did go all to the u.k. to get this damn degree. it's time to bring it home, especially since I have just ingested three shots of espresso and some junior mints.