day forty-six: what the f* is up with red america?

and moreover, what the f* is up with america becoming redder???

goddamn people (sorry jess), but I just don't undertand how the people of the united states can honestly support someone who has signed in such poor legislation into law, has put america amongst the unpopular/most hated kids on the playground of foreign affairs, and blatantly blatantly blatantly works to benefit his republican, money-grubbing cronies. I JUST DO NOT UNDERSTAND!

after waiting for the returns until 6:00am and a hour online checking the results of the house and senate races, I'm left feeling more uncertain about 'america' as a country than before the election. did you know that eleven states passed ballot initiatives to ban same-sex marriage in their state? eleven. the republican majority in both the house and senate increased as well. perhaps I'm delusional about what our country is about, but it seems as if people are okay with our republican president and his (or rather, delay and hastert's) republican congress digging the hole that we are now in even deeper. I just don't know if I can tell people anymore that I'm from the states while I'm here. not because I'm ashamed (though I admit today I am definitely bewildered), but because I cannot personally understand, with all of my insight into american politics, what is going on in our country's collective conscious.

while I continue to cross my fingers and toes and give myself an ulcer in tracking the results, the results of this election, regardless, leave me to wonder what 'my' country is all about.